Preliminary Exhaustion

I woke up this morning and both hands were numb; even left, which took a solid 5 minutes to awake. *sigh* So much for the adjustments.

Had a dreadful and long day at work, which has only just ended.

I did have a very rewarding bitch session with J, although I realized despite how hard I work, and how long I have been there (nearly 5 years!) I still get paid less than he does as an office PA. Granted, my hours are better, and hourly I make more than he, but...

He's a fucking office PA. I was running a theatre company 6 years ago! I could do his boss's job with a beautiful smile on my face and make everybody happy while I was doing it!

And then the dinner party is Sunday. And the house isn't ready, and I honestly know that I'll finish the food and everyone will be happy (and hopefully they will all have a place to sit!), but I'm already exhausted, and it's supposed to be the FUCKING weekend.

And did I mention that I realized today I really fucked up at work and almost missed submitting an application for our operating support from the state that would have lost us $50K, and that's way more than my salary, and they've fired grant writers for less. It's all worked out theoretically, but everything has to be in the office by 5 on Wednesday. Which means it all has to be done on Tuesday night. And it's not a ton, but its enough to be anxious about, and I already have 3 applications due that day, and

did I mention I'm exhausted?