Dreams about Controllers

I had somehow become involved with a controlling, abusive man. I realized I couldn't go anywhere without his permission, and he had cut me off from all my friends, etc. He was a polygamist, and was physically abusive to his other, smaller girlfriend. I watched him throw her from the roof of where he kept us.

I finally realized that the only way to get out was simply not to come home at night. I was allowed to go out for work, and I just didn't go back. I was terrified he would hunt me down and find me, and I did everything in my power to stay away from him. My car was towed because of a neighborhood parade, and then I ran into like a surrogate family... they took great care of me, and offered to drive me where I needed to, and then their car was also towed. We also had to go downtown to get the cars out - but when we got there, hundreds of people were ahead of us. I realized it was the beginning of carnival season, and the city was ramping up for it.

In the end, it turned out this man was some sort of religious fanatic - they had started a sect of episcopalianism or something equivalent that was very exclusive, rude, elitist (white), but also tortured people and animals - animals especially. They killed small animals, kittens and cats, for the sport of it, after very arbitrary selection.

I could see him from far away after I left, but I was genuinely afraid of him, and afraid of what he might do to me. And I couldn't believe I had gotten into that situation - because he seemed so kind in the beginning and did all the right things.




How scary is it, after 2 glasses of wine, that your mind combines the two frustrating relationships in your head and brings them to their worst possible end? Although, the good news is I did get out, despite the loss of control (car).

It all works out in the end.