Same old Same old.

I've gotten myself all wrapped up in it again.

Did I mention I met my soulmate? I suppose I met him months ago, but really started getting to know him weeks ago. Like Two weeks.

And we started out being BFFs. And after knowing some things about his history, I made a bet with him: I bet you can't stay single until January 1st. Even better, I bet you can't stay single until your birthday (February 6th or 7th; I can't remember). The only conditions: you may have "meaningless" sex. One night stands and the like. You may not, however, call her the next day. You may not text her.

The spoils? Dinner, cooked a la Veritas. If you make it til your birthday, throw in a massage.

I made this bet nearly two weeks ago. I had no idea I would now want him to lose it. I always knew he was attractive, but I didn't think... I don't know.


So here I am, some weeks later, and after him "text-stalking" me last week, he has now left me alone all day. Why is it that I am afraid people will grow tired of me? We did Not have sex, but I did give him a BJ after which he suggested I write a book. Perhaps he simply realizes we both need some time away. Maybe, as he said last week, "you + me = same person."

We both need some distance. We both might be freaking out a bit.

Or maybe it's just me.