Dreams

I've been dreaming again lately. This is important to me, but I know if I don't keep track, then I'll forget. For whatever reason, I stopped writing them down in the morning. After five years of Jungian Analysis, I can't just ignore them.

So we'll go with this. Blogging them is better than forgetting.

Last night:
I was driving my car back from Mandeville. On the bridge (the longest bridge over water in the world, by the by), I went on auto pilot: literally. I wasn't even watching the road. I realized I should probably watch, so looked up, and took control of driving again. As I came to the end (or the beginning?) of the bridge, there was a strange link between the bridge and land: like a ramp or docking deal. I wasn't paying attention, or wasn't focused enough, and my little car got eaten. I didn't wait, or time it right, so the front of my car hit the ground, and the force of it snapped the chassis of the car. Literally. The front axle snapped in half (and disintegrated). The bridge guys tried to help me, and at first we thought maybe I could drive it off. But I realized how much damage there was, and literally picked up the under carriage of the car (which was now small enough to fit in my hand), and it was snapped, but fragile, and there were whole pieces missing.

Then I was stuck in the middle of nowhere, and no one would or could come get me. Heather was the only person I called, but she was working, or couldn't drive out there for hours. I was abandoned out there, to wait and fend for myself.




The other dreams I have remembered are all about J. Whatever. 2 nights ago dreamt about his ex; night before last dreamt I had his job, but someone told me I was better at it than him. Even though I couldn't stay focused, and kept getting distracted. Oh, and I guess I met a boy? Don't remember that part.


The car dream freaks me out. Makes me think I've been living my life on autopilot, with a fragile foundation, and as soon as I start to take over again, I have a disastrous accident, and am totally crippled and unable to get out. Maybe this dream is about the drugs afterall...