More Dream

Last night, more vivid dreaming. I tried to remember when I woke up this morning, but couldn't, so forgot about trying. Just now, walking out of the ladies room at work, it hit me.

[background: In waking life, before anything happened with J., and we were still just friends, A. and I met and hit it off. J. asked me, as a friend and out of respect for him, to not date his roommate. At that point A. had already slept with one of J.'s old crushes (maybe 2), and went on to sleep with another of J.'s ex-girlfriends. So, out of respect for him, I did not pursue it. Many months later (and just a few weeks ago), I ended up going back to their place to get a necklace after a night w/ J., and ended up spending all day with A.; ended up buying a piano. We have a great time, but I know now him well enough to know dating would not be a good idea. As I left, he followed me out to the car, and asked me "What happens now?" I told him "Now you play the piano." He kept following, thanking me for the day and whatnot. It was odd; although looking back I guess he was just being interested. Without trying, I sent a clear enough message.]

So, the dream, yes. I am hanging out with A. at J. & A.'s flat. We start talking, and one thing leads to another. He tells me he's interested, and it's been pretty obvious to both of us the whole time that something is going to happen. We start to kiss, and we are in his bed, and well.. nothing serious happens. But then J. comes home, and as soon as he walks in, he's in A's bedroom. A & I don't stop anything we're doing, although I am very aware that J is there. I may have even been trying to make him jealous.

I also remember my girlfriend N. being there, and something along the lines of a double date. But don't remember much other than that.


I am not sure what this is about, except my brain simply exploring these ideas. I still settle on my original decision that dating A is a bad idea for all sorts of reasons: if I'm looking for a long-term partner, he's not it. If I'm looking for Casual Sex, my best friend's roomate is not the place to find it.